.subconsciousness?.

What has subconsciousness got to do with me? It manipulates my opinion, it procrastinate me, it led me to wrong decisions. It operates the mind beneath or beyond conscious awareness.

For example, I think I've recovered, but yet my body temperature is warm and I'm not having fever. Weird. It has been 2 days. I've paid my visit to the doctor, and despite having to pay a bundle to seek his advice, I'm still as enervated as before. I strictly followed what I'm supposed to do. BUT, I still couldn't have a good night sleep last night. I've been on my bed since 10 plus, and the constant irritation in my throat caused me running into my toilet numerous times. That is so frustrating. I've been thwarted by it to have a sound sleep, for nights. The medication didn't seem to work on that. Today I woke up touching my warm skin, I nearly burst into tears, why am I still feeling hot inside? Without much hesitation, I went jogging. I sweat only a little but at least, it cools down my body. I hope there will be no further repercussions.

Come to think of it, it might be my subconsciousness fooling around. I am well already but yet it subconsciously lead me to think that I'm still unwell. Am I okay or am I not? I'm so confused. I know I should be staying home but staying home seems to worsen my situation, but leaving the house, I bear the consequences of catching cold due to the intolerable weather. Stop letting me think that I'm not alright. Boo to subconsciousness.

Maybe whatever I've written here is impenetrable. Ignorance is understandable. I want to get well soon.