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Awful. An embarrassing moment. I nearly went black out hours ago. I felt like I was like on a merry-go-round at a giddy speed. I couldn't stand still. I can hear my friends and I acknowledged the fact that I'm in a coffee shop. Yet, I feel vertiginous. It happened before. It happened 2 years ago when I was on the flight. It happened again a year ago when I was having drinks at Sky Bar.

Till today, I fail to realize the source of my weakness. I've seek doctor's advice and he concluded that I just have to avoid being in stuffy places. I have to make sure that there is adequate ventilation in the room before I even entered. Mom declared that I'm a "toufu"; super fragile she claimed.

A bad day indeed. I was uttering "It's painful, very pain" for many times just now. I just hate it when it attacks. It was indeed very painful especially when it couples with my dizziness. Thank god I have a bunch of sweet friends. KW and Win managed to drive my car over and I threw myself into the backseat of my car. Dramatic I know, but yes it was. I was writhing on the backseat in agony. I can hear JE and KW whispering in my car, blaming each other as to which is the fastest route. And, I overheard something about the night before. :)

I didn't know how to explain to people around me as to how I really feel. It was torturing. I was cold-sweating all along. JE felt it. I can hear her, many times, assuring everyone that I was sweating all over. Thanks JE. I wanted to explain badly, but she told me keep quiet. :) I can hear FJ too, she was wondering what's wrong with me. Trying to figure out what the heck was attacking me. Sweet. WY managed to get me water. Yes, I can remember! But I have minimal strength to move an inch and thank them on the spot. Sweet Geri allowed me to lean on her for a while. I remember that too.

I once thought I was suffering from claustrophobia, but guess, I'm being too paranoid. It's supposed to be an anxiety disorder that will result in panic attack, I clearly have no symptoms indicating so. I just couldn't stand stuffiness I guess. But, the fact that I'm able to post an entry now means Gillian is fine. :)